Some companies give a 5-year appreciation service award. This year marks my 5th year as a mother. Instead of feeling appreciated, I felt a little lost. Somehow I felt as though I was only a 'mother', and I didn't want to be just a 'mother'. That was not my life dream, that was not all I wanted to be when I grew up and I've forgotten the real me.
Most people who become parents like to talk about how their lifestyle has changed rather than how it has changed them as a person. So I got caught up with all the dos and don'ts, haves and have nots, wants and needs, yes and nos, good and bad, right and wrong, and I've forgotten, my intrinsic self.
I did some soul searching, countless conversations with my husband and asking God all the time, who am I. I know I've definitely changed as a person, after becoming a mother. My perspective about work changed, I don't feel so stressed about it anymore. I've also become more empathic towards others. And I've thrown all my schedules and organisers out of the window.
But I was still feeling frustrated with my children, frustrated with myself. Am I all there is to be, just a 'mother'? And then one day, the word "LOVE" just flashed in front of me. And I could hear ever so clearly from my Father's heart - You are abundantly loved, so love yourself and just love your family and those in need as yourself.
I finally got the answer and I wrote out my personal mission so that hopefully I won't lose my way again *fingers crossed*
And suddenly a voice came from heaven, saying, “This is My beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased." - Matthew 3:17
Now whenever I ask Noelle about who the girl in the photo is, she says very confidently, "Me!" Yes, I am me, His beloved daughter. Who is the real you? And what is your personal mission?